Dark Beauty

As a young child, she was told,

"Princesses are pretty, witches are cold."

This thought she buried in her heart.

But she was told from the very start,

She was not beautiful, or pretty,

Could never impress, never be witty.

A big portion of her dream was cropped;

The wishes to become a princess stopped.

There was no fairy godmother with a wand.

And with one flick of insecurity's hand,

She hid like a rat, like a cur,

For another thought dawned to her.

If she was not pretty, not a beauty,

Does this mean she was ugly?

Just like the mean rude witches,

With scary faces and an eye that twitches?

Yes, indeed, for she felt as grotesque

As a dead flower lying on her desk.

And so she turned to her people,

The witches, with boils big like her pimples,

And snarled at everyone she meets,

Laughed when somebody trips.

Even flipped the middle finger

That made her look a lot uglier.

Never tell a girl she's ugly,

Even though she's not obviously pretty.

She has feelings like you, too,

And there are horrible things she could do.

You

You walk around the hallway and run a hand through your hair

You throw your head back, laughing, and you do not care

You follow your own decisions without any pretenses

You are confident as a dog jumping over the fences

You give them your signature smile and they follow your every will

You tell them what to do and they move a hill

But at the end of the day, when everybody goes home

You sit on the couch just by the phone

And nobody rings.

Throughout the lonely night,

Before the clouds again turn white

You repair your wings.

Maybe it sucks to be "YOU"

Teen Thoughts

A younger me believes in rainbows and ponies

An older me reflects on betrayals and phonies

But now I'm neither young or old

And my innocence is already sold

I still hope of a better tomorrow

No pain, no hurt, no sorrow

And yet I think of misfortune

That might swallow me whole soon

So you see now I'm in that place

Where I'm stuck in the middle of days

I am neither young or old

But my thoughts are for both.

I Have A Dream

I have a dream.

I have a dream.

But no one seems to understand,

How in one flash, it could get out of hand.

For if a dream be crushed,

My thoughts will be hushed -

A silence too loud

Will be the only sound.

I have a dream.

Too impossible to achieve,

Too difficult to weave.

Dejected, I sit on the streets

As my heart do nothing but beats

And shatter at the moment

I was engulfed with torment.

I have a dream.

Yet no one believes in me

And they don’t try to see

That maybe I could be something.

Instead of breaking my wing,

Why not support me how to fly

And see how much I try?

I have a dream.

And forever it will stay silent

For I couldn’t be resilient

To fight for what I want

Saying excuses like I can’t.

Just like I lack the confidence

To jump over the fence.

I have a dream.

And if I have the courage to do so,

I won’t stop from the hated foe

That is called reality.

My life will be sweet, not salty

Nor would it be bitter

Because I am not a quitter.

I have a dream.

Mistake

She was just simple

A girl with pretty dimples

With big blue eyes

Will never witness she'd cry

With her shiny blonde hair

White as snow, so fair

A smile so perfect

Keep a picture in your locket

Was born on a summer day

A beautiful girl, they say

Her parents, rich and happy

Staring at her eyes, deep as sea

"Oh our daughter," they exclaimed

"Grow up, young men will claim!"

At five, learned how to read

At ten, turned into a flower from a seed

But fate do change

And good things fade

That little girl so sweet

Turned into a horrible creep

At sixteen, ran away

Never came back until five days

Her parents, disappointed

Expectations, being haunted

What happened to their daughter?

Now worrying her mother and father

Beautiful blonde hair she had

Now charcoal jet black; how sad

Black lipstick on her lips

Her top never reached her hips

Eyeliner on her face

Oh, there are no more ways

For that girl to go back

Yet love she did lack

Her parents forsaking her

Her parents disowning her

So at seventeen, she left truly

And life treated her cruelly

Lived on the streets, she did

From cops, she hid

No, friends, no family, no love

Only drugs and cigarettes, she have

But she never did one thing

Because even though she's sad and hurting

She never poured down her tears

Even she faced her deepest fears

At night, she's cold on the streets

At morning, dying from the heat

Nobody took pity

On the girl who was pretty

One night she did gave up

Her patience over the top

So to the club she danced

Not only one time, but more than once

Then somebody came in

She danced at him like sin

He took her home at night

Made love to her as if it was right

When morning came

She didn't feel the same

She tried to leave, to go

But he refused, no

Timidly, she had asked why

As tears almost welled up, ready to cry

He touched her face

Smiled at her like grace

And said, "You'll be okay,

I'll protect you, day by day."

And so she stopped working

At the club she used to be dancing

But now she knows how to love

And experienced again to be loved

But then again, fate do change

And good people fade

He was killed in an accident

And just like that, he went

Leaving her all alone

Cold and hard as stone

And only then she did cry

And after, she sighed

Wiped the tears away

Doesn't care what others would say

But she'd live and move on

Stop acting as the devil's spawn

And just go back to her parents

So the next day to the train she went

A broken eighteen year old

Who used to be a rebel

Now meant well

As she go back to her mother and father

She wasn't the perfect daughter

Then again, no one's perfect

Perfection isn't in a manual booklet 

Make mistakes and learn from it

You will find the love you seek.

Forever Yours

I close my eyes and remember those days

Those days when we were innocent and free

Why does all good things have to end?

Why do you have to leave?

I put my hands on my hair and remember the touches

The touches that made my skin tingle

Why does all good things important to me fade away?

Why do you have to go away?

I open my eyes and shake my head

No use of wondering, remembering

You're never coming back anyway

A tear escapes my eyes

I get up from bed and walk

Walk to my window to watch

Watch your mother and sister crying

Your father and brother follows

I look up to the large yellow sun

I look up to the clear blue skies

Why does this day has to be so beautiful?

Supposed to be dreary, sad

A knock came from my door

Immediately wipe my eyes

I open my door and see

My mother with a sad smile

I nod, understanding

She nods back and pats my hair

I step out of my room

Follow my mother out of the house

The whole town is sad

Giving me sympathetic looks

Try to ignore them, I did

But it is just too hard

The whole town came

Mother and I in the front row

Your family beside us

As the ceremony went on

Then the time came

When I stand up and walk

To the coffin where you lay

Lifeless, cold, dead

Tears starts to stream down

Why do you have to go?

And be killed in the war?

You don't deserve to be

As I watch you there

As if you were sleeping

Can't help remembering the days

The days we spent together

We were both seven

Your family moved

To the house next to mine

Curiosity crept to me

We instantly became friends

You were my hero

Those mischievous blue eyes

Those wavy blonde hair

We were fifteen

When you started showing signs

Signs that you like me

Signs that you want me

Then five years passed

We were both seventeen

You gave me my first kiss

I felt flying, so happy

Now I am eighteen

You swore you'd marry me

And in my finger

Slipped a silver ring

But then the war came

It was 1941

All eighteen-year-old boys and above

Have to go to war, have to fight

Before you left, a kiss you gave

Promised you were coming home

And when you'd arrive

You'd marry me

But three weeks of worrying

Three weeks of praying

Your younger brother came

Said you died in the war

I collapsed to a chair

Looked up at your brother

He must be lying

You wouldn't die

But the soldiers took your body

Back to your parents

The whole town saw

Your mother crying in anguish

The memories I try to push away

And focus on the present

I lean closer to your coffin

"I love you forever," I whisper

I turn away, as my mother came

Buries me into a hug

Promises everything is going to be okay

But I know it wouldn't

So later that night

I go to bed, carrying your picture

Lay it beside me

A picture tells a thousand of words

I raised the glass I'm holding

And pour the violet liquid

I bought at the store this morning

And look down to your picture

We can still have our forever

But it wouldn't be here on Earth

Closing my eyes, I drink

And everything turn black

And I only see your face.

His and Her Story

Her:

I used to wake up in morning

My heart filled with longing

And now my heart breaks

The love I knew was fake

I always gave

He always take

Never had something in return

So finally I just turned

Turned away from my love

My one and only dove

And now I feel empty

Always did when he left me

How did it all began?

Those things before he was gone?

Be quiet and I'll tell you

I loved him, I always do

I met him one summer day

Recalled in seventh of May

The first time he came

From then on, never the same

Different he was from the others

Knew I'd never look for another

I thought he had love me

But why didn't I see?

I was just too blind, my dear

And the result are tears

Used my heart, not my mind

Thought he's the love I used to find

But realized it was wrong

Like an out-of-tune song

But who can blame me, I ask?

I fell in love - truly fast

Realized I was damn stupid

Thought he'd been struck by Cupid

Closed my eyes; my weak knees

He took my hand and kissed me

But it was only a game

And I was helplessly tamed

I opened my eyes, now wide

My swollen eyes when I cried

Closed my eyes once again

My heart wouldn't be mend

Him:

I used to wake up in morning

My heart was just singing

And now I can't feel a thing

Not even my broken wings

She always gave

I always take

She never had something in return

So she finally just turned

I should have been happy

But instead I felt crappy

Why do I feel this way?

There's nothing else to say

I recalled how it all began

Those things before you were gone

So I closed my eyes, recalled the memory

I always loved her, I just didn't see

I met her one summer day

Recalled in seventh of May

The first time she came

Treated her like my dame

Different she was from the others

But can't help thinking she's another

Another girl who will break me

Another girl who will leave me

All girls I loved broke my heart

Ended what they had start

I was never serious with you

I've been a jerk, too

But I realized it was wrong

Like an out-of-tune song

I realized she's different

Another slutty girl - she weren't

And when she told me it's over

My heart sunk lower

Remembered I used to take your hand and kissed you

Realized I am in love with you

For the first time I fell

And realized I was hell

I opened my eyes and made a decision

This is real life; ain't fiction

So I ran to her house next door

I will mend her heart sore

I smiled and said, "Hi."

She faked a smile and said, "Hey."

"I have something to say."

"I don't have all day so be quick, okay?"

Took a deep breath, "I'm sorry,

And darling, don't worry

I won't hurt you again

Fights and crap won't happen again."

Because I just love you

And I hope you do, too."

She smiled while crying happy tears

I smiled and wiped those, dear

I'll love her forever

She and I together.